Date : Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Time : 11:21 PM
Title :

Baby say she will come back to me before my ORD, but during this period of cool down, i am very worry, worry who she go out with? cos this is the important time, any thing small thing happen can change everything. I always believe baby is loyal to me and so do i, and she give me hope again as i really believe she will be back to me real soon....

I miss her very much, it been 1 week since we last met, during the weekend by right should be meeting her..., now i think back i am quite sad n jealous. VERY JEALOUS n SAD. i hope baby will know... i really wanna tell her how jealous n sad i feel when i know that, to her is normal, friend send her home, but for me,is very different, watch midnight show somemore with her friends together also ,than 2 days later that fellow send her back home from work than meet her friend eat supper, for me this is jealous to the maxxxxxxxx...... meeting her tomorrow night... she got a gathering, but she not sure wat time finish, so i decided to go early there and wait for her. Its time for me to give in more, i really wanna save the relationship, and baby also going back to our relationship. Put my hand together with her hand and clap, that is wat i wanna do.

Actually i quite scare to blog now... cos sometime i do write rubbish to make baby angry, but its not wat i mean... but for her point of view is bad thing. I am really Sorry.

Today had been smsing with baby whole day, but i feel that she seem to be like not really care to reply my sms after 8pm which i begain to anyhow think again, i am worry AGAIN, wonder wat is she doing now or who is she with now. But i try sms her, she got reply, she was with one of her good sis, which i 100% believe her as she dont lie to me. i trust her alot, more than anything.

But if baby got anything hide from me again? and i found it myself, i think i going mental breakdown. I dont hide anything from baby, whatever thing happen to me i will inform her, good or bad thing she will always be the first to be informed. She know everything about me, but when she got problem, normally she will tell her sis first -,-" than me or i know from her sis. Which is quite sad for me, but i dont mind, cos no matter wat happen to baby i will help her whenever i can.

Now all i wanan be is a good BF than a husband, i jus now had been reading the cards you give me during our avi, think back now, i really miss our old days, the fun, outing n joke we had. I hope the days will come back soon, (dont you think so baby?)

Now got very bad headaches, got nearly 3 days never sleep n 2 days never eat(got force by baby to eat abit this evening). Body had been broken down, seriously i can feel my body real weak. I am too tired till when i got out of my bed i felt very giddy.... now still got a bit but with very very bad headaches but i insist to wait for baby to reach her sis house.. i dont mind waiting.

Pass 3 days got 2.5days are emo days for me, got send back home from base, cos my sir scare i do stupid thing during duty(which i really got thing of it but no gut). i been waiting baby sms for 1.5hr le , wonder if she reach her sis house? i began to worry again sms her no reply... still i keep telling myself that baby dont do thing behide my back as she is loyal to me.